As I begin this journey - seeking to bring light into the darkest corners of my life - I hope that all who visit are encouraged to begin to travel the path that beckons. Those powerful secrets that keep us locked in the past have no power when shouted aloud for the world to hear. I ask that you join me in breaking the silence...
xoxoxo - Scarlett
after a year like this one i'm surpised i do not hate your guts
and, after a year like this one i'm surprised i still love music just as much
after a year like this one i'm surprised i did not eat my young
and, after a year like this one i'm sorry if i'm not cordiall to everyone
after a year like this one i'm surprised i am convinced at all
and, after a year like this one i do not roll my eyes at the cynical
after a year like this one i can't help but wonder how they've been
and, after a year like this one i think i'llleave it all to my next of kin
after a year like this one i'm surprised we're all not raving drunks
and, after a year like this one i want you to choose the restaraunt
after a year like this one i'll need a good whole sixteen months alone
and, after a year like this one i think i'll make the west coach beaches my new home...
so very many things have come to mind lately...how repulsive it is that someone would post sexual links as a comment on a previous post...how it is that perpetrators simply tend to "live" with their sickness, leaving survivors to fight for healing and oneness...
how i ran across a website the other day - written by a survivor of child pornography who summed up the issue of "shame" in an ironic way...stating that lots of little girls and teenagers dream of being "cover-girls" and "super-models" - and the realization that is what we are - the cover-girls for the the child porn crowd. The super-models for those predators and perpetrators who rape children. i would credit that author if i could remember her/his name or the site...any misquote is unintentional...
how odd it is - to know that there are pictures and movies that chronicle and validate my abuse floating through cyberspace...realizing that i cannot legally search for them without fear of investigation...and also knowing that my humiliation serves to feed others fantasies...
how extreme it feels - to know that my individual experience was part of a much larger and frighteningly more organized agenda - whose range of power forces me to limit any diatribe...
XOXOXO - Scarlett